
The End. It comes for every athlete, for the fortunate its by choice. I am now at that end, and I thought it pertinent at this end to reflect on it, what has been and what I’ve learned. I ended my competitive swimming career with my best times of my life, no they’re not world records but they are my records and I am more than pleased with that being my end. The end of 7 years of work, fun, friendship, defeat, and triumph. But I think its best to not judge those years based on the clock. That clock is at face value what we strive for but show me someone who swims for the clock and I’ll show you some one who will never be happy. As I’ve thought about writing this I have thought about my career as a swimmer and I can say I don’t think I would really change much. Of those 7 years I’ve only swam about 5 but those missing years made the end that much sweeter.
When I was writing this I began reliving my swimming life over in my head but I do not intend for this to be a recap, a eulogy of my swimming life, I’m not dead and my involvement in swimming surely isn’t over. This is more of a thank you, a thank you to my teammates, my coaches, and the sport itself.
To my teammates, Thank you. You guys and girls are what makes that long season bearable. Going through the morning practices, bus rides, and airports with you makes the difference. You can’t help but to become closer to a group when you spend more time with them than you do your own roommates. In the end they become your family and its certainly true in my case as well. Both in high school and through college the team really is my other family, and I’d like to think we are all there for each other in our own times of need whether large or small. We shared alot of experiences together, things such as the Sheetz runs and nights in Zach’s basement from high school, the gatherings to blow off some steam after a tough week of classes at someone’s apartment, the Halloween or Christmas get togethers, the swim team romances and the drama they caused. These are all things I won’t forget any time soon and will always give me a chuckle. Hopefully its the same for you as well. I’d also like to thank you for the support over the years, the cheering, the pat on the back, the handshake, those things are all very important and make you want to continue when you think its no longer worthwhile. Hopefully we all try to stay in contact as well as possible even though we may scatter around the country and for some of us the world. For you young guys (and girls) my best advice is to stick with it, the window you have is finite and when your at the end you’ll wish you didn’t waste any of it. For my fellow seniors, its been a hell of a ride, I feel honored to have been apart of the same team as you and to see it be built and heading in a positive direction as we leave is great.
To the coaches I’ve had, I really appreciate all you have done for me. Putting up with all of my crap, giving me the opportunity to prove my worth, and continuing to have faith when things like my shoulder put things in doubt. The team can be a hard thing to get a handle on but you did an admirable job of “steering the bus”, helping us all to discover new things we didn’t know we had in us.
The sport itself is something I’ve only really began to have an appreciation for. It’s one of those sports that walks the fine line between team and individual, something that I think helps you learn to rely on yourself and a group all at the same time a tool that I think is valuable in other capacities as well. In the past year I’ve really began wanting to really learn more about the sport I’ve been participating in all these years. For a long time I simply did what I was told with out much understanding of why. But I find myself looking for those answers now and with the increasingly vast amount of information available finding them. The pool hasn’t really treated me that great. Up until a couple of weeks ago my fastest times were from high school and being able to overcome my difficulties to finally break them all in my last meet was a great feeling. They always say you learn twice as much from losing as you do from winning and that certainly is true. I think that my renewed interest in the sport itself is partly the reasoning for my improved performance. Understanding the mental and why we train, the purpose, is as important as the training itself. Certainly this is the end of my competitive career, but I don’t think it will be the end completely. I find myself still wanting to be a part of it, perhaps in a coaching role at some point. We’ll have to see how that plays out.
In the end its bittersweet, that continual pounding is over but so is the thrill of victory as well. Its been something that has shaped both my high school and college life and therefore helped shape who I am but it does not define me. But it is something I will carry with me and remember. The End… For Now.